Tuesday, January 16, 2007

Jan. 16, 2007--Hello again?

I see that all but my last post is now hidden....i.e. already transferred to Blogger Beta. When I can figure out what to do with all the legal jargon, I guess I'll be switching/updating.

At the moment, I'm not up to working through all of that.

Hope you're all doing well. Hard to know whether anybody will find me now, if I DON'T switch--or how long this program will be available, so I'll try to do what I need to do "soon."

Happy New Year!

Theodora

Saturday, December 16, 2006

Sat. Dec. 16, 2006 -- The day before "Gaudate" Sunday...

...and, FWIW, you can again visit NACR if you're so inclined to see my thoughts on this, as well as a brief meditation from a church site about the meaning of the day. (This is at
http://www.christianrecovery.com/vb/showthread.php?t=6020 )

Other than that, I continue to be frustrated by not being able to respond on Blogger Beta...Gary and Lily (among others!) have a good conversation going, but I'm limited to just reading it for now, I guess.

And...sorry Jordie...but when I used the URL you gave me for your blog, the search came up empty!!! CURIOUS! I WAS at least able to read your blog before!

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So.....mini-news from the "home front"--I got out to do a little Christmas shopping yesterday (mainly some "stocking stuffer" items) -- one store and that was QUITE enough "fun" for me! However, I'm about to go shop Hobby Lobby to get some yarn to finish an afghan for my mother-in-law....and least I HOPE I can finish this by Christmas, since that is her main gift from us! Had had a good start on it and ran short of the yarn for the border which they didn't then have in stock so......well.....once again "the best laid plans of mice and men (or even well-intentioned women!) oft 'gang a'gley'," don't they? I THOUGHT I had started this in good time, but then "things" have intervened and we're down-to-the-wire again.

My husband and I had a good laugh over a recent comic strip wherein the husband of the little drama is shopping for a bicycle on-line. He asks his wife about it, who advises him to shop some more. When he then notes that it comes ASSEMBLED, her response is to "BUY IT!!!"

Well....not too much seems to "come assembled" these days, but I did also have a little "first" in my life yesterday when I shopped on-line in a gift catalog and made some purchases. (Now to see whether they actually arrive in time!) I know, I know...I've no doubt all the REST of you savvy folk have long since done this, but...well, "better late than never?" My Marine son, whose expertise is in computers and all things "technical" really shakes his head at his old-fashioned parents whom he accuses of coming "kicking and screaming" into the modern age. AND, so it may be.

YET...here I am continuing to "blog," thanks to the start that Gary gave me last summer (and for which I am grateful) AND...oh gasp, oh wonder....I actually figured out how to use the scanner and to attach what I scanned to an e-mail for the family. "Small steps"---and, apparently I didn't use the right format---but, still, it got done and transmitted the information.

So...."moving on" as best I can. Christmas "plans" seem to be firming up and I THINK I can begin to see how we can all "live with it." Will spare you my not-too-hidden disappointment over all that we need to change for this year! Working HARD to stay focused on what's important....as in actually having FAMILY in town this holiday. Not everyone is as fortunate, I know, and I continue to think about all those who have lost loved ones this year. WHAT a year it has been for so many people, right? Right!

"O come, o come Emmanuel.....!"

Grace and peace to you all this day.

Theodora

Friday, December 15, 2006

Fri. Dec. 15, 2006 -- Not much time to post....

...and what ELSE is new???

David, Bruce and Jordie---thanks again for your responses to previous posts. I'm not sure how this works, but do note that I've left you some messages in those threads.

Curious thing re "logging in" and not being recognized on Gary's blog....

This a.m. I logged in....or tried to...."over there" and was not accepted. HOWEVER, when I came to my blog, I found that I was already signed in and didn't need to post my name and password in order to pull up this new screen. ("Curious and curiouser," said Alice, as she fell down the rabbit hole!)

ALSO...I WAS able to post a response to Gary last week, so this is really odd.

WELL....no time/energy etc. to do more with this right now, though, as always, Gary's (and David's etc.) "meaty" posts make me want to be able to offer something more "in dialogue."

When/as I have the time...("Joke, son....!" she explained! ;-) ) I'm tempted to "lift" some quotes from your blogs so that I can work with them here....if "push comes to shove" and I can't figure out what's going on. (And yes, Bruce, I will see what's possible with your blog. Thanks for the offer.)

If interested in something of my "life and times," I invite you to visit the NACR site.

FWIW....a meditation/poem in response to seeing a former "co-worker" at a recent concert:


Wed. Dec. 13, 2006 "Class distinction"
http://www.christianrecovery.com/vb/showthread.php?p=43858#post43858

and


Thurs. Dec. 14, 2006 -- "This is the day which the Lord has made..."
http://www.christianrecovery.com/vb/showthread.php?p=43879#post43879

(a meditation beginning with one of my Grandmother's favorite Bible verses...and musing on how that had "backfired" with me....moving into my acknowledgement of yesterday's having been the anniversary of my nephew's being killed in a car accident in 1997.)

Grace and peace to you all this day. As always, "more as able!"

Theodora

Thursday, December 14, 2006

Thurs. Dec. 14, 2006 Hello Gary,David and Jordie???

I've been trying to log on to your blogs the last couple of days and find that my password is not identified. However, it was sufficient to get me into my blog. ??? I'm wondering whether it's a problem of the newer Beta---which I think you're both using---and this older format not recognizing each other somehow. ??? You guys are the technical wizards, I'm just guessing.

In any case, know that I HAVE visited you both of late and that I do appreciate the work that you're doing.

Thanks for checking in as well, Jordie! Will see whether I can access your blog later today if I can.

Grace and peace to you and all here this day--

Theodora

Tuesday, December 12, 2006

Tues. Dec. 12, 2006 -- Something about this past weekend...

Hello all--

Some of you "know" me from the NACR forum, where I posted the following yesterday. (See below.) However, for those who don't, I thought I'd offer this here as well and to ask for your prayers for all as well. I was REALLY tired yesterday, so, after taking care of some "stuff" for my husband, I took it easy and got to bed early. Today--especially after having had another acupuncture treatment this a.m. AND having had a relatively good amount of sleep, I find that my relative "equilibrium" is back....the catch being how VERY "relative" a thing this seems to be! I love the recent quote posted on the "No Crosstalk" forum recently: "Sometimes the most spiritual thing we can do is to take a nap!" (Good food for thought there too, but OH! HOW very true that does seem to be for me at the moment!)

Well.....This a.m. I wrote up a revised version of our annual Christmas letter and my husband got it copied while I was having my acupuncture treatment. SO now....we're "moving along" toward The Day, even if not as "efficiently" as we might like. That being the case, if I again fall relatively silent, you can imagine me muddling around TRYING to do what is necessary for a family holiday.

If you've got the time, I'd be interested in how you're spending your Christmas. What traditions do you have? What traditions have had to be changed over time? How did you deal with that? (We're needing to be REALLY flexible this year, and I find that I DO vary in my ability to handle this "well!")

More as able! I really do need to get off-line and into the "real world!"

Love and prayers....and, if I don't have a chance to do this before Christmas day, do know that I'll be thinking of you too, and that I do send you all my very best wishes for a truly wonderful, blessed Christmas.

Theodora

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Here's my post from yesterday:

Subject: Mon. Dec. 11, 2006 "People will do stuff..."

http://www.christianrecovery.com/vb/showthread.php?t=5960
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....was the unexpected reaction/NON-reaction by the acting rector to the destruction of c. 1/4 of one of "our" church's stained glass windows this week. I can't begin to tell you of the shock it was to arrive in church, prepared to take my seat at what has become my "usual" place by this window, only to find it broken out at the bottom and "pieced" on the other side with plain glass. In talking to various people, including one of the deacons, I found out that the church had been victimized by another break-in (they had had someone break-in last spring, I think)...This happened on Thursday night and the deacon said that the perpetrator did get some money as well....but.... Talk about NOT talking about the "elephant in the living room!" There was NO announcement made as to what had happened, nor the reassurance given that the windows were insured and that the church is still in contact with the original artists, so hopefully the window can be restored. It was only AFTER the service, as I saw the rector in passing and made some comment to the effect, pointing to the window...."as if life weren't complicated enough..." that I got even that much response about of him. ???

I'm reminded a bit of the modeling of the Quaker community of Forgiveness in the face of the horrible murders of their children this fall. I can "admire" what seems to be "acceptance" of life's trials on the part of this man, but also wonder what he expects the congregation to do with their (...or...I'm projecting now...MY) sense of outrage and having been "violated"...at the DESECRATION of sacred space, at being at the mercy of those whose single acts of destruction can impact so many for so long. It's NOT just a question of whether or how we can bring some semblance of "order" back into this little haven of peace---it is the sense that, even as others have written following other, more serious disasters---WE ARE VULNERABLE.

It seems to me that having this now-visible reminder of our vulnerability, that we should be led in 1) GRIEVING what is lost...including some semblance of "safety" and 2) brought together to acknowledge the DIFFICULTY of needing to deal with the "real world" while in the midst of TRYING to prepare for a joyful Christmas and/or 3) to helped on in our own spiritual journey of where/how to "hate the sin but love the sinner" and to relinquish all need for "revenge." I guess part of the frustration of all of this is feeling that the perpetrator will probably NOT get caught---too many other "more important" demands on police time and energy and, after all, in the view of those looking at "bottom line," since the church is insured and has some hope of "restitution" of ITS PROPERTY, that is the heart of the matter.

But no....there's MUCH more to this than JUST the destruction of property and I feel a bit uncertain as to the "church's" leadership simply BECAUSE feelings were left unacknowledged and the obvious was ignored as though it had not happened. ??? I don't know....we've only recently begun attending this church with any kind of frequency and I don't really know this priest, but it was a hard day for me, in spite of some joyful music in church and, later, being able to attend the performance of two early music groups...one a vocal group, the other performing using early instruments---recorders, viola da gamba, etc. We also had a chance to sing some carols with them, while they did some nice descants to that, or alternated singing the verses with the "congregation." As it happened, I was seated in front of an alto, with whom I had previously sung in the church where the performance was held, so it was fun to have a small taste of "being home" to be able to sing together again. (Two of the singers in this vocal group are also in the choir of our "former" Episcopal church, so it was a joy to be able to see them and sing "with" them again too.) We also had a chance to see some friends from other venues who had also attended, so had a fun (and joyful) chance to show the "brag book" of photos of our Marine in dress uniform and his wife and new baby daughter.

Well....that's the extent of my news for today. As always, your on-going prayers appreciated for all....for wisdom, for peace, for "discernment!"

Grace and peace to you all this day--

Theodora

Saturday, December 09, 2006

Dec. 8, 2006 -- Responding to a question: "What is hope"

Good morning, all--

I just found "Profnachos" posting on the Spiritual Abuse forum and wanted to include that question and my response here for further reflection----as able! (NO idea at the moment when I'll be able to get back to this!)

Here's the Thought of the Morning....see below. Hope you all have a good weekend. Our older son is to help us get our outside Christmas lights up this a.m. and I need to work on getting some packages in the mail, so it should be a BUSY day. THEN, I'm to have massage therapy at 12:30, which I HOPE will not leave me so "relaxed" that my husband and I can't also attend a performance of "Amahl and the Night Visitors"---a delightful "operetta" which has been a part of our Christmas musical life for some time now. It's been some time since we've seen it performed, so were excited about the possibility of renewing first-hand acquaintance with it.

More as able! Blessings to you all---

Theodora

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(My response is at the top; "Profnachos' " question is at the bottom as a quote.)

12-09-2006, 07:21 AM
Theodora

Good topic, Profnachos!!! So good to see you back!

http://www.christianrecovery.com/vb/showthread.php?p=43604&posted=1#post43604

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Will look forward to seeing responses here and will also try to visit your blog. ( I too have been rather sporadic in being able to post...including on my blog.)
Intense times for me at present....so perhaps my "hope" at the moment is simply that I CAN stay focused on what I need to do in the present and to trust God for the rest.
Will be thinking/meditating about this one in the days ahead. Thanks so much for posting.
HOPE you're doing well and that this Advent is full of joyful expectation for you. Hmmmmm......perhaps "joyful expectation" might be a definition of the moment for me of "hope?"

Grace and peace to you and yours this day--

Theodora

P.S. If interested, my mini-post on my blog yesterday included an updated picture of my granddaughter. I've now "met" her, but not had much time with her. The family is to be here over the holidays, but, as currently "scheduled," I don't have much ...um...HOPE!...that I'll be "allowed" much time with her or my son and his wife then either. More musings...is "hope" the antithesis of what we'd take to be "realistic assessment"?--- i.e. what I'd HOPE would happen is the opposite of what I can ENVISION happening as current attitudes presently stand.

Siiiiiiiiiiiiigh.

Blessings to you, David. I've missed you and your insights and really am glad to see you!!!
My blog: http://theodorasjourney.blogspot.com/


Quote:
Originally Posted by profnachos
Sorry for being away for so long. I hope to catch up a bit here.
I just posted this question on my blog extending invitations to my readers, but let me repeat it here, and hopefully I will hear from you as well.

Even though hope has a prominent place in our faith ("And now these three remain, faith, hope and love"), I don't remember hearing a sermon about hope. Perhaps that is a good thing. Both faith and love have been hijacked and perverted by the fundamentalists and transformed into tools of judgement and condemnation. Faith has come to mean putting your trust in the fundamentalist system. Love means to "tell the truth" by tell you that you are in sin when you don't submit yourself to the system.

So perhaps hope is our last hope . I don't remember anyone condemning anyone because of hope, or a theological debate about hope ending up in a brawl. Can you imagine that? "Hey you infidel, your hope sucks!"

But what is hope to you? And how does one exercise it?
At what point does a hope become a pipe dream and wishful thinking?

Friday, December 08, 2006

Dec. 8, 2006!!!... And a LOT of "water under the bridge.."


Hello again!!!

Hard to believe it's been so long since I've been able to post. We're in the "middle of a muddle"....to quote a line from a children's book!.... but TRYING to keep focused on what's important.

However, I've just learned to do some new things with our computer...i.e. to use our scanner to put images in "My Pictures" and wanted to see whether I could post a quote I copied for a friend.

???

Here goes....

Hmmmmmmmmm.....

It's not working.

Let me try another source, a newer picture of my granddaughter Alexa--

So that works! (Isn't she cute, if we do say so??!?!) This was taken when she was about 9 weeks old, in Calif. Her parents, our son and daughter-in-law, wanted to make sure everyone knew that their loyalties were still in Nebraska, I guess! They were here in Neb. for the wedding of a friend in mid-Nov. and I had a chance to meet Alexa then....yea! More to tell when/as I can. We're now looking to have them "home" for the holidays, but scrambling to coordinate everyone's plans, etc. (Your prayers appreciated!) This is all rather intense!

So....enough for now. Will be back in touch when I can. Know that you've not been forgotten, even though I've been silent---as I hope you've not forgotten me either.

Christmastide blessings to you all!

Theodora